GuroFanatic comments

I honestly don't know why I decided to look at this and comment but anyways, I am a Hikikomori and I live in canada. I used to be a normal kid and I went to school and had 1 friend in real life but I was bullied a lot not only by the other kids but by the teachers as well. at about 11 I started skipping school a lot sometimes id go every 3 days and it slowly got worse and worse. I started missing weeks and I started contemplating suicide an cutting myself.. A lot. at the age of 13 I got put in a mental hospital for a month and it was supposed to help but it didn't. After I got out of the hospital healthier physically but not mentally I was raped by a man whom was 21 and ended up staying at his place for 3 days an when i finally got home I remember breaking down and telling my mom what happened but my mom is a bit slow and it didn't phase her. She looked emotionless and said "it's okay". He ended up getting put in jail after mom told child services i lost my virginity to a 21 year old named Allan. After all of that I lost my one friend and lost all interest in making any more. I lost all my friends and all my family stopped talking to me. I became isolated and stayed in my room introducing myself to MMORPG games and online boyfriends and friends. I am now 19 and I don't cut myself as much as I used to because I am trying to stop but I am still a Hikikomori and I honestly don't know if i can get better. I hope I can but the thought of being forced out of my comfort zone is overwhelming.